"It's a Climb ... but the View is G R E A T"

Okay so judge me but the Hannah Montana Movie was fantastic! It weirds me out how in so many ways I related to it. This is most likely because it was about a huge changing point in her life, and I'm about to embark on a huge one myself. 

This is exactly how I feel, like I am sitting on the side of the road on top of everything my parents have provided for me, all dressed up, and with an utter look of confusion of my face. People constantly talk about the future and what is to come. Well how do they know? It's the future, there are no outcomes already waiting for us. Everything relies on the decisions we make in the present, one subtle thing we do differently could change e v e r y t h i n g ... 

And while I don't know if what I am doing by staying in San Diego is the best thing or the smartest, I also can't imagine looking back on my roaring twenties and wondering what if? Especially seeing as this is a question I've been asking myself and others a lot lately, it has replaced the two year olds "why?". And as I said to my dad on the phone today amidst signing a lease on my own (one of the scariest things I've done to date) ... "and if I fail, at least I can say I tried" 

"You tuck me in, turn off the light. Left me safe and sound at night. Little girls depend on things like that. Brushed my teeth and combed my hair. Had to drive me everywhere. You were always there when I looked back. You had to do it all alone, make a living, make a home. Must have been as hard as it could be. And when I couldn't sleep at night, scared things wouldn't turn out right, you would hold my hand and sing to me ... 

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder you you'll be. Can't go far but you can always dream ... Wish you may and wish you might, don't you worry, hold on tight. I promise you there will come a day ... Butterfly, fly away"

- Butterfly Fly Away Lyrics ...